oh what to do with myself
failing school
failing music
failing fun
failing friends
at least there is something i'm not afraid to fail
i already failed you
and i'm not thinking about it anymore
midterms tomorrow
idontgiveafuck
idont give afuck
i dontgivea fuck
anymore
you were all i needed
i would have been your everything and anything
which
i think
is why it stopped
why we stopped being that
and started being this

i don't care anymore
this is why i drink dangerous amounts of alcohol
this is why i smoke enough to get cancer
this is why i eat my mushrooms
because a day without you is a day without air
and this scares you

god i fucked everything up
i wish you could hear me